God is in Control!

This whole entire school year, I could not wait for summer to begin.  This summer, I thought, I was not going to be busy with teaching Summer school, Russian school, my school, helping my husband with school, or any other thing that would take me away from family.  This summer was going to be different!  I was going to take a break from all the busyness of life and focus on spending time with family, kids, husband, and have some time to myself.  For the first time, my husband and I actually pulled out a calendar and plotted out a schedule for the entire summer.  We wanted to go to Disneyland with kids.  We wanted to go to the beach at least a couple of times this summer.  We planned our trip to Seattle for my brother's wedding and how we were going to go to Canada while we were there with my parents watching our kids for a couple of days.  We even planned another quick getaway to Las Vegas one weekend.  This was the first time we were going to not waste any of our free summer time together, but really enjoy it and make every day count.  It was a great plan, or so we thought...until yesterday afternoon.

My oldest two daughters were taking turns riding their bike back and forth in front of our house.  As my daughter Yana was taking her turn, she noticed a car coming down the street and wanted to turn away a little, but accidentally turned too much and fell to the ground screaming.  I was in the shower at the time, while my husband was outside.  He ran over, picked her up, and carried her home thinking she just had a couple of scratches.  However, she had absolutely no scratches but kept crying histerically.  When I came down stairs, I put ice on her and told her to try to fall asleep, hoping the pain would go away.  She fell asleep and woke up telling me she felt better, but as soon as she tried to move her leg, she started crying again.  I was not sure what to think of it still thinking it is no big deal since there were no visible signs that anything could be broken, no bruises, no swelling, no scratches, nothing.  Everything looked absolutely normal.  However, since she would not stop crying, I decided to call the doctor.  They told me to go to ER right away because even though nothing is visible, it could still be a break.  So my husband took her in.  And what do you know?  Indeed a break, even two in her lower leg bone.
 

Of course the ER experience was not pleasant because as my husband was telling me, the doctors confused the order twice.  They first ordered an X-Ray on the wrong leg not seeing anything.  Then they ordered it on a knee trying to X-Ray a knee.  Kaiser....I tell you!  The whole thing is taking hours while the child is in pain.  Doctors or nurses make mistakes, but then have to wait for another order, another nurse, another hour....so poor Yanochka had to go through all this pain while the doctors and X-Ray Techs were trying to figure out what to take pictures of.  Finally, we had a picture!  And yes, it was a definite break!  Ouch!

Three years ago Yana broke her clavicle and now this...  I have never had a broken bone and cannot even imagine what the pain would be like.  Never mind the pain, what about the healing process?  Doctors said 6-8 weeks of healing with weekly X-Rays and who knows? We just pray and hope that after 8 weeks that will be the end of it and the bone will heal correctly.  So what that means is that for the next two months, Yana would need to stay in one place day after day.  She needs to be carried to the bathroom every few hours.  She needs to be repositioned every now and then because she is scared to move.  I just hope that as the pain begins to lessen, she will learn to move about herself.  So there go our plans...Disneyland?  We still want to go.  Vadim already got a vacation.  But now we have a baby in a stroller- Sofia.  Lilly will probably need a stroller and now Yana in a wheelchair?  Not sure how that will work...but we are hopeful!  We will see how things go! Now the beach?  What are we going to do about that?  She will have to be carried and sit on the sand the whole time...no playing in the water...no playing in the sand....the cast will get all sandy.  Not sure how that will work yet, but again....we so wanted to go to the beach!  How about out little getaway?  Oh boy, we will have to put that on hold, who's going to want to watch her in this condition?  That's right...no one!  So what's next, the wedding in Seattle?  This trip we were planning since Christmas!  This will be the hardest I think...Driving in her position...getting her in and out? The worst part is that she won't be able to be the flower girl....She never had that opportunity ever and now she might never have one.  She and all the cousins were supposed to walk down the isle and throw petals.  So all my girls were supposed to do that and now Yana will be so sad...and so will I. 

So what now?  Yesterday after finding out about the cast and realizing how different our summer was really going to be, I broke down.  I prayed and asked God why did that have to happen now?  Why? Why? Why?  We did not plan for this!! We did not want this summer to be this way!  This was going to be the first summer free of "other" business, just for us!  I prayed asking God to give me the strength to get through this! After my sobbing prayer, I got up, went to my Facebook page and read a verse I just posted a couple hours prior which said,

"So do not fear, for I am with you; do not be dismayed, for I am your God.  I will strengthen you and help you; I will uphold you with my righteous right hand." Isa. 41:10. 

I read it over and over again and felt a surge of strength and power fill me.  My tears dried up and I got up knowing full well that God was in control!  He stands behind this whole incident!  He is God and He is Good!  I know he will get us through this experience!  He just wants us to learn that He is in control, not we!!!